urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:enlarTBOLenlarenlar2008-03-15T18:35:23Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:enlar:309Respite House2008-03-15T18:35:23Z2008-03-15T18:35:23ZThey moved my grandfather the respite house yesterday. Apparently he was none to happy about it. i am not sure if that is because he just wanted to go home, or if it was because he knows that the respite house is not exactly known for its rehab programs. It is an end of life care facility. <br /><br />My uncle came in from Oregon. I am not sure how long he is going to stay. It must be hard to travel across the country to visit a dying relative. Makes me wonder how i will handle it when the cycle of life turns again and it is my turn to visit my father. <br /><br />i am having a hard time visiting my grandfather. He is only a few miles away which makes it really easy for me to see him. But emotionally it is hard. All i have to do is go and sit in a room with him and hang out. Make some jokes, watch some tv. But i sort of dont want to go today. I guess the hardest part is not the going there, it is the leaving him. If you are not there and he passes then you are not there when he passes. but if he passes right after you leave, then you will feel extra guilty for not staying a little while longer. <br /><br />it is easier to not go visit, then it is to turn and say good bye, knowing that you are leaving them alone in their room. if that makes sense.